the people..

random rantings.

we look at the mirror everyday at our own reflections
yet some people cant be true to themselves or people they love.
how hypocritical.
feeling discontentment.
at times i wish they will just disappear from my lives.
sometimes i wish i could pretend nothing happen but thats not the case.

men are a happier creature than women.

I just realised men are happier creatures unlike the agonies women bear–

What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put.
The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant.
You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park.
Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal.
You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky.
You don’t have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt.
Same work, more pay.
Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100.

People never stare at your chest when you’re talking to them.
New shoes don’t cut, blister, or mangle your feet.
One mood all the time.
Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat.
A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $9.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color.

The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades.
You only have to shave your face and neck.
You can play with toys all your life.
One wallet and one pair of shoes — one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can ‘do’ your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.
You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

the days passes...

hellooooo world, monday is here again...

let's get some updates of what happened lately,

i weighed maself and i've lost 1.2kg. delighted. :) registering for 10 km stan chart marathon, moving onto healthy lifestyle. My medication makes me get a lil bit depress at times which i doesnt quite likey, but the full course gonna take me months, ENDURE!
i'm still firm with "moving out" plans.

i'm drained with schools, assignments, work-works, overtime, busy lika bee everyday.. am really tired. i had MAC shaker fries on saturday! FINALLY! I LOVE IT! I was so sad when it was gone and excited when it came back, and again it repeats and now its back!!!!! have to eat have to eat, but its uberrrrrr sinful. :(

has been abt a mth being single again.. somehow quite likey, taking tis time to really settle down with what i want and do something for maself which i've been wanting to do..:)

randomly monday...

“You can shed tears that she is gone,

or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,

or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,

or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,

or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that she is gone,

or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind,

be empty and turn your back.

Or you can do what she'd want:

smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Things that you never knew about me...

~ I always wish i could have family dinner, with mum and dad sitting by my side, placing dish on my plate and feed me my favs!

~ I got No.1 two year in a row, primary 4 & 5

~ I can survive with minimal of food but not water!

~ I can finish 1 big tub of ice cream all by myself unknowingly when i'm engrossed in TV show.

~ I love people watching, observing people is one of my leisure.

~ I hearts Choco and Milkshakes when i'm having my periods. so i dont usually affected by mood swing or having cramps.

~ I have never own a luxury/branded item till Dec last year, i got myself a kate spade wallet and recently a burberry handbag. but i'm not someone who craves for brand.

~ I get moody, uneasy if i dont shit at all in a day. i hate constipation "

~ I weighed my heaviest now at 49kg and 44kg my lightest both while nursing my heartache. The irony link between love and weight isn't it?"

~ I am rational, not entirely logical but am charged with emotional attachments to things. I believe that people do the things they do, act the way they act and feel the way the feel based on cicumstances. "

~ I get rash once a while, especially intake of seafoods "

~ I have my own toilet habits, i do not sit on toilet bowls w/o cleaning it and placing tissues all over.

~ I'm afraid of cats, especially Black Cats

~ I always wanted to be a teacher. Amazingly, i love teaching kids. i like the process. and to become a piano teacher was my dream!

~ I never really liked being the only child or the oldest. I always wanted to have an older brother who rocks in playing guitar, a sportsman, and would bring his girlfriends home to chat with me.

~ Do not test the water. In general, i'm more patient than most people. But when i'm done, i'm done with it.

the way you look tonight

Helloooo Darlingss..

I'm Back!

so, away from the blistering heat, sorching huminity, excessive food, loaded with work, fall sick, losing voice and lack of sleep, everything was pretty much alright.

have been feeling rather jaded this few weeks, presumably thinking about things in the long haul. i've been washed out.

11th June 2009, i turned 24, a day that i wish i could forget, but somehow my loveliess make my day to worth remembering. it begins with heartbreaking, and ended with laughter. the

two extreme makes my heart weak! :) but that's makes me appreciate how lovely my besties is. not forgetting my families, they are one that never fail me. :) i love you peeps.

28th June 2009, Happily ever after "Jac & Mel", she's one of my loved ones who care me for the most, protect me, shield me, and gave me the best guidance, best advice, the best love.

PS: Pics be up later!

the aftermath...

Hellooo..

Thanks to those (you know who you are) who have send well wishes, concerns, encouragement through email, sms, facebook throughout the week and those who accompanied me through a bumpy ride.

I’ve never imagine myself to be in this kind of situation.
The kind of heart broken, the kind of disappointment and the kind of helplessness, that you’ll never imagine how pain It was.

It was sweet at the very beginning I would say.
Love was what we believe that it brings 2 peoples from the different world to share the same perimeter in life.
Commitment was what we believe that it bring the 2 peoples to make all the “impossible” happens.
The strong bond between the 2 individuals is one miracle that god’s given
Someone once said “what makes lovers never tired of one another?” is that they talked always about themselves, they shared, they talked heart-to-heart with no boundaries.
And whenever there’s argument, it’s important for lovers to always be reminded of the instant chemistry when the both of them first met each other.

Love is magnificent isn’t it? And I believe there’s more reason for love to exist between 2 individuals and to become one item.

You define it.

Well, a lot of things in life are unpredictable and there are bound to be ups and downs.
And someone once told me that we will all get hurt deeply once in our life.
I believe it now, because I’m going through this period for my life now.
How it turn out to be in times to come, unpredictable.

Allow me to be sad, allow me to be true to my own feelings now.
Because I’ve invested all my feelings and effort in hope to find my own true happiness.
And it isn’t turned out as expected.
The kinda heart broken and incessant pain is traumatizing but I guess that’s the journey I’ve to go through in order to walk out from the pain now.
This will take me sometimes because it will be a tough route to go.

But I’m not losing my faith, I’m still holding hope for my true happiness. :)
Maybe I’m just losing someone who doesn’t love me now.

Keep your gaze upon the sky
Go on with your route towards your happiness

I'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart to know

We'll be so far apart.

Next Chap:

Loveliess,

I’m coming to my birthday celebration and the 1st ever Stag’s and Hen’s night that I attended and participated.
I’m excited for MJ – “Dream Wedding” :D