that's what i wish..

I believe in amazing love songs, cry at the sappiest ending in films, every signs point to 'romantic', so why then, do I not let myself believe and fall all the way in?

I have fallen before, let my guard down, with a slightly emotionally unavailable guy I met, I have fallen before, for someone who treats me his world and fallen for someone that was bad for me, and I have tried to fall for someone who was nice, who was constant, but I ended up running anyway.

Love was innocent back then,

The bundle of anticipation waiting to see someone again, how he interfere your steady heart beat, alter your moves, moves you with its pace of his own rythmn.
The necessitate to have someone by your side all the time, the reluctant to bid goodbye, ending the day with him with a long kiss, the shoulder you rushes to when you need a good cry, the first person you always find in your call log.
You feel safe, stable to rest in his arm, he held your hands tight and both walking in the same pace of footsteps, you’ll know that there’s always someone you can date with whenever the rest turn you down for dinner, the voice that you wish to hear for comforts.

I wish I had my innocence back and can love with no fear, fully and deeply again, like I have never been hurt before.