that's what i wish..

I believe in amazing love songs, cry at the sappiest ending in films, every signs point to 'romantic', so why then, do I not let myself believe and fall all the way in?

I have fallen before, let my guard down, with a slightly emotionally unavailable guy I met, I have fallen before, for someone who treats me his world and fallen for someone that was bad for me, and I have tried to fall for someone who was nice, who was constant, but I ended up running anyway.

Love was innocent back then,

The bundle of anticipation waiting to see someone again, how he interfere your steady heart beat, alter your moves, moves you with its pace of his own rythmn.
The necessitate to have someone by your side all the time, the reluctant to bid goodbye, ending the day with him with a long kiss, the shoulder you rushes to when you need a good cry, the first person you always find in your call log.
You feel safe, stable to rest in his arm, he held your hands tight and both walking in the same pace of footsteps, you’ll know that there’s always someone you can date with whenever the rest turn you down for dinner, the voice that you wish to hear for comforts.

I wish I had my innocence back and can love with no fear, fully and deeply again, like I have never been hurt before.

never mind the imperfections..

“Any girl can be pretty, but for true pants-tightening appeal there has to be something working against you just a little bit. It could be a scar you got when you were little, braces or a mole right off center of your nose- that’s what will make you memorable to dudes. Isn’t it? Otherwise, it’s two guys trying and failing to describe you like “Hey do you remember that cute girl from last night?” Which one? “Uh, she had brown hair, a white t-shirt and um… yeah. I’m hungry.” That’s why you got to put those supposed flaws front and center and rock that shit. You’ve got a back brace? Rock it. Chipped tooth? It makes you brassy. Fake leg? Don’t stress.”

Imperfection is where it’s at. Stands out girls.. :)