Tunnel of Love

It ought to be easy ought to be simple enough
Man meets a woman and they fall in love
But the house is haunted and the ride gets rough
And you’ve got to learn to live with what you can’t rise above if you want to ride on down in through this tunnel of love

Bruce Springsteen, Tunnel of Love, 1987

me-time

my life seems to be just revolving about work for a long time..
and the worst part of it, is that i'm getting used to it. :(

minutes ticking, weeks passes, months elapses..
2010 is coming to an end, so what's next?

i back-tracked my "to-do list" that i've noted down last year and this is what i have..
I’ve a list to-do for 2010, i hope to:

- have my teeth whitened (Yes, i went dentist yesterday after the last time 5-6 years ago)
- get a VAIO lappy (eventually, i have not get one for myself, still using my company's)
- lose at least 3kg (didnt managed to lose any but glad that i didnt put on more)
- read and reflect more, indulge and party less ( read Eat, Pray Love, To Kill The Mocking Bird, Tuesday wih Morries, The Time Traveller's Wife, Life story - Making Pink Lemonade, yupe, that's about it)
- perm my hair (curled it and get it straightened back, wanting curl again!)
- go for yoga and gym religiously (no yoga nor gym, but i do run)
- mug harder for my studies (deferred due to financial)
-maybe consider for a career shift (this is in progress..)
-save more money, travel more. (no travel in 2010, except for back-home-trip with girls)
-get myself a nice indoor tan. (no tanning, getting fairer infact)

looked at how much effort i've actually spent for my own happiness.
Not enough, seriously.
Marathon-Photos-Organisation, you need better photographer, all the pictures are ugly..:(

Wedding dinner @ Novotel Hotellove!

Missing holidays with the girls...

mess..

These weeks…

I’ve depression on my left and loneliness on my right, they exist the moment I breathe awake.
I lived my everyday with overwhelming work, working from 9-to-9 for 3 days a week.
learnt that you gotta chase the rabbit if you want the tail.
had beer at 3pm.
concluded that we are the change that we seek.
watched back to back movies on back to back days, and had a deja-vu moment.
Disturbed by harassing text.
still surviving from the lack of sleep.
these week has been really nasty..

I wish....

Time could stop ticking for a while, feeling rather exhausted chasing after each minute.
I could have long holidays, to a foreign land which I could feel like as if I’m starting a new life.
I could have quiet time by my own, with no BlackBerry, no emails, no calls, no texting.

ok..

I know it’s weird saying this on a public domain but although it might not seem the case, I lack confidence and self-esteem. I always have the worry that I am not good enough, that I am just a pretender and everyone else are unable to see my flaws and inadequacies. I worry that if people see that I am not good, then people will start rejecting me.
I need to learn that it’s okay to be wrong, to be imperfect and to embrace the irritating idiosyncrasies that make me,…me. It’s okay if I am not pretty, or do not possess the perfect body, not the smartest or most successful. I know if I live my life comparing milestones to everyone else, I’d always be miserable.

And this week, I've made the decision to go for a change, accepted the shift, taking new path.

All well I hope...

ELVA蕭亞軒 - 錯的人Ｍｖ

back from holidayss...:)

i do miss holidays... :(

my new-found-love - Lomo

@ illy's Cafe ( Studio M Hotel)

Look! Lomo does MAGIC! simply love it! :D

we are what we choose

What choices will you make?
Will inertia be your guide, or will you follow your passions?
Will you follow dogma, or will you be original?
Will you choose a life of ease, or a life of service and adventure?
Will you wilt under criticism, or will you follow your convictions?
Will you bluff it out when you’re wrong, or will you apologize?
Will you guard your heart against rejection, or will you act when you fall in love?
Will you play it safe, or will you be a little bit swashbuckling?
When it’s tough, will you give up, or will you be relentless?
Will you be a cynic, or will you be a builder?
Will you be clever at the expense of others, or will you be kind?

I will hazard a prediction.
When you are 80 years old, and in a quiet moment of reflection narrating for only yourself the most personal version of your life story, the telling that will be most compact and meaningful will be the series of choices you have made.

In the end, we are our choices.
sad to say, at times, our originality are influenced by surroundings, we complicate the simplicity of choices, making choices tough.

tough life...