Me.

I’ve been getting questions about my personal life and it seems like some of you want to know more about me. Alright! Let me share with all of you something, of how I viewed my life thus far and how i wanted my life to be.

I told myself,
I cannot afford to go through life uninspired, unexcited.

I cannot live each day miserably (though sometimes I had my gloomy days but I know i cannot afford to let it drag for long period),

I cannot trudge through work painfully.

Maybe I’m not meant to be spectacularly beautiful, or rich, or smart and neither am I born outstanding but i valued myself, i love ME!
I have been living my whole life for practicality.

To make those who loves me proud, to finish my education, to get a job, to stop being compared, to not lose out to my peers. I am not made for the competition, for the rat race or the who’s who.
I am Me, I am Kellyn , I should be accountable to myself.

I am exhausted from the wear and tear of the yesteryear,

from being jaded and cynical. I’ve been living life to meet expectations that people casts on me.

It’s time I should reverse the damage.

I want to make sure I am happy.

I. NEED. TO. BE. HAPPY.
Even if that makes me poorer, slower or a loser.

I know I need to look back and tell myself, I have lived dangerously and I have no regrets.

Heaven on Earth..

Wouldn't it be great if we lived in houses that perpetually look like they belongs to a magazine spread?

Loook!! These are just so beautiful like "Heaven on Earth"..

Amanda Seyfried - Little House

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it's different, i always thought, when someone dies.
when someone dies, there is a patch of blankness that makes it possible to accept.
A certain satisfaction in encountering the infinite.
But someone is lost to you and still lives, its an absurdity.

People fall in love in an instant, but it takes longer to fall out of love.
Perhaps there is a world where people would act on whim where deeds could detach themselves cleanly from all motion of consequences.
To him, it was an odd kind of nostalgia for things that never happened,
for a presence that like old memories, open a door on another direction,

A place where late night footsteps echo in foreign streets and you hold your breath perishing to know what comes next.
the kind of silence so accommodating, expectancy laughing in the air like clouds hanging over the dome.
With him, it was just a flash of idle curiosity, the kind which evokes a child to poke a stick into an anthill.
An action that, like the unknown secretary's gift of a ticket cannot be undone.

Fyfe Dangerfield - She's Always A Woman

My Friends

Have you seriously thought through, how many friends you’ve made in life?

Who are those that you always turn to whenever you need someone, who you really considered as “Friend”?

To me, it takes a lot to be considered my friend.

I do not take to frivolous friendship; some places makes for a lot of such similarly minded friends.

I term such relationships as proximate friendships.

Proximate friends can be found in places where you happen to be together and experiencing the same things at the same time.

Work perhaps. Short courses and even that gym workout you do every week;

remember who you saw without fail every week?

You are not aware but actually, you and him / her are proximate friends already. is but a short 2.5 years,

How do I make friends you ask?

I have friends, friends I have known for more than 5 years, friends I have chosen – to be in my small circle of friends.

oh yeah, just caught The Blind side during wkends, and god it feels righteous in so many ways. your typically old-style story that is high on hope, low on cynicism and long on heart.

no fuss, no tall tales, no gimmick.

it was an instant hit for me and certainly no surpise why Bullock nailed it with a Golden Globe. way to go!

..Slumber Party..

so much so that i wanted to make it a private affairs, Hence, guest are limited. guest that i've extended my invitation to in FB are not confirmed. finalized name list to be advised. :) (or might not even have any guest) only my close darlings! (you know who you are) :p