Saturday, February 26, 2011
been so busy....
Been so busy…
My life have been pretty much on work, social and myself..
I decided not to involved my life with the other half for the past 2 years..
Reason simply being,
First, I have got a broken heart to mend first before I could love someone whole heartedly again..
Secondly, I could feel that I’ve losses the sense to love..
Third, it’s harder for me to give trust to someone again…
It has been tough for me but I can proudly tell everyone now that I’ve gotten over everything, it supposed to be so much hatred within but I’ve forgiven..
What’s left behind, was a lesson learnt, a stronger heart to guard and of cause, good memories stays..
I did a lot of reflection when I’m alone,
thinking what future I would paint for myself
do I remain alone or I should share my life with someone else..
I missed those teenage years when I can fantasize all the nicest things to have in life..
At the age of 18, i want to grow up fast and not being dependent
At the age of 21, I want to work hard and to start earning myself to a good living (to be financially independent)
At the age of 23, I dream being in a pretty white dress and happily hoping to get wedded at the age of 25
At the age of 25,
I realized things isn’t that simple as what I thought before, (or maybe it was never easy)
Any decision one made, affects another and I find decision the hardest adversity I have to faced now..
I can honestly speak that I am unsure of what I want all the time,
Though I hold the attitude of “take it as it comes”
The downside of having this attitude was, you will never know what you really want…
Weekends is here! The worst busy week has past... FINALLY
AND I’M LEAVING ON A JET PLANE….
See’ya lovelies! I’ll keep posting timely because lappy is coming with me!!!! :)
Monday, February 21, 2011
the begins of twenty-eleven
Friday, February 11, 2011
....
be it in the middle of a desert,
or in the middle of a big city,
And when these two people pass each other and their eyes meet,
past and present loses all importance.
And the only thing that exists in that moment and the incredible certainity that everything under the sun was written by the same Hand,
the Hand that awakens Love,
and that makes a twin soul for everyone who rests and seeks treasure under the sun.
Without this,
our human dreams would make no sense.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
thoughts of life
We’re forced to look inward. We reflect on the past.
Did we spend enough time with an aged parent, we wonder.
Did we express our gratitude for all the sacrifices that they made for us?
Did we tell a spouse just how desperately we love them, not just once in a while, but every single day?
So some loss causes us to look backward, but it also forces us to look forward,
to reflect on the present and the future, on the manner in which we live our lives and nurture our relationships with those who are still with us.
We may ask ourselves, have we shown enough kindness and generosity and compassion to the people in our lives? Perhaps we question whether we’re doing right by our children, or our community, whether our priorities are in order.
We recognize our own mortality. And we are reminded that, in the fleeting time we have on this earth, what matters is not wealth or status or power or fame, but rather how well we have loved, and what small part we have played in making the lives of other people better.
- Barack Obama, January 12, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Greetings!!
I start to appreciate the bonding as I grew older. Be it friendship, family or love life. It is these bonding that actually keep us alive. Afterall, we aint just living by our own, we live for one another, we live for peoples we love and for those who love us, and that makes living a worthwhile ride.
I couldn’t believe that I’m crossing over to the mid 20s to late 20s. (seriously, kill me) ,
I've never get worried of the future, because I’m just gonna take things easy, and take it as it comes. (pretty much depends on fate in a way)
Friendship: I want to say a BIG thank you to my crazy gang, you girls are the ones who keep me sane till now. Though we might be busy with our own schedules, but we made the effort to keep in touch by just simple sms, whatsapp, skype or FB. I’m glad to still have you standing by me in times of sorrows and happiness. I really appreciate the relationship we shared and I hope it keeps strong as time goes.
Career: I’ve made a decision for a change of path in my career and I would say, I’m happy with the arrangement till now. I must be happy because it is what I’ve chosen for myself. I started with hating my job, for always taken up my me-time and now, somehow I’ve adjust myself and got used to it. I accept the fact that earning for a living is always not easy and we should never be just content with the comfort zone, that’s how we grow.
Family: Relationship with daddy didn’t get closer, or I would say, we are further apart. This could be understood as we’re leading a different life now. Nevertheless, he’s still a “father” that I respect.
Granny: I wish with all my precious for her good health and long live. I know it has been a wish of granny to see my success, to finish my uni and finding myself happiness, I’ll try my best to fulfill them if I could.
Relatives: aunties, uncles, I’m so glad that we are bonded. Though I might not have all the parental love since young, but i found love from all of you, every single one of you who loves me. I appreciate the once in awhile text “how you doing” “how’s work” “take care and love you”, simple text like these comes great sweetness. I felt loved, always! I really do.
Love: I do get questioned ALL THE TIME on why is there no a particular someone..Well, for those who know me, it has been 1 and half year+ that I’m enjoying singlehood and trust me! I’m not complaining and I’m not really eager looking for someone.
Being in a singlehood really isn’t a bad thing afterall, I enjoy the fact that I could have full focus for myself. Do anything you want, go anywhere you want to bring yourself to. To me, this is truly a bliss pleasure. Though you might bump into sweet couples around, got envious with all the eternal love of 2 peoples is sharing but hey, it isn’t that bad to walk alone too, isn’t it?
Okay, I ain’t shutting myself up though, I’ll just leave it to fate and take things as it comes, like what I’ve always said.
Meanwhile, I’ll enjoy being in a singlehood. :)
















