beats of my heart

Sunday, November 7, 2010

mess..

These weeks…

I’ve depression on my left and loneliness on my right, they exist the moment I breathe awake.
I lived my everyday with overwhelming work, working from 9-to-9 for 3 days a week.
learnt that you gotta chase the rabbit if you want the tail.
had beer at 3pm.
concluded that we are the change that we seek.
watched back to back movies on back to back days, and had a deja-vu moment.
Disturbed by harassing text.
still surviving from the lack of sleep.
these week has been really nasty..

I wish....

Time could stop ticking for a while, feeling rather exhausted chasing after each minute.
I could have long holidays, to a foreign land which I could feel like as if I’m starting a new life.
I could have quiet time by my own, with no BlackBerry, no emails, no calls, no texting.

ok..

I know it’s weird saying this on a public domain but although it might not seem the case, I lack confidence and self-esteem. I always have the worry that I am not good enough, that I am just a pretender and everyone else are unable to see my flaws and inadequacies. I worry that if people see that I am not good, then people will start rejecting me.
I need to learn that it’s okay to be wrong, to be imperfect and to embrace the irritating idiosyncrasies that make me,…me. It’s okay if I am not pretty, or do not possess the perfect body, not the smartest or most successful. I know if I live my life comparing milestones to everyone else, I’d always be miserable.

And this week, I've made the decision to go for a change, accepted the shift, taking new path.

All well I hope...

Sunday, October 24, 2010

ELVA蕭亞軒 - 錯的人Ｍｖ

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

back from holidayss...:)

i do miss holidays... :(

Sunday, September 19, 2010

my new-found-love - Lomo

@ illy's Cafe ( Studio M Hotel)

Look! Lomo does MAGIC! simply love it! :D

we are what we choose

What choices will you make?
Will inertia be your guide, or will you follow your passions?
Will you follow dogma, or will you be original?
Will you choose a life of ease, or a life of service and adventure?
Will you wilt under criticism, or will you follow your convictions?
Will you bluff it out when you’re wrong, or will you apologize?
Will you guard your heart against rejection, or will you act when you fall in love?
Will you play it safe, or will you be a little bit swashbuckling?
When it’s tough, will you give up, or will you be relentless?
Will you be a cynic, or will you be a builder?
Will you be clever at the expense of others, or will you be kind?

I will hazard a prediction.
When you are 80 years old, and in a quiet moment of reflection narrating for only yourself the most personal version of your life story, the telling that will be most compact and meaningful will be the series of choices you have made.

In the end, we are our choices.
sad to say, at times, our originality are influenced by surroundings, we complicate the simplicity of choices, making choices tough.

tough life...