that's what i wish..

I believe in amazing love songs, cry at the sappiest ending in films, every signs point to 'romantic', so why then, do I not let myself believe and fall all the way in?

I have fallen before, let my guard down, with a slightly emotionally unavailable guy I met, I have fallen before, for someone who treats me his world and fallen for someone that was bad for me, and I have tried to fall for someone who was nice, who was constant, but I ended up running anyway.

Love was innocent back then,

The bundle of anticipation waiting to see someone again, how he interfere your steady heart beat, alter your moves, moves you with its pace of his own rythmn.
The necessitate to have someone by your side all the time, the reluctant to bid goodbye, ending the day with him with a long kiss, the shoulder you rushes to when you need a good cry, the first person you always find in your call log.
You feel safe, stable to rest in his arm, he held your hands tight and both walking in the same pace of footsteps, you’ll know that there’s always someone you can date with whenever the rest turn you down for dinner, the voice that you wish to hear for comforts.

I wish I had my innocence back and can love with no fear, fully and deeply again, like I have never been hurt before.

never mind the imperfections..

“Any girl can be pretty, but for true pants-tightening appeal there has to be something working against you just a little bit. It could be a scar you got when you were little, braces or a mole right off center of your nose- that’s what will make you memorable to dudes. Isn’t it? Otherwise, it’s two guys trying and failing to describe you like “Hey do you remember that cute girl from last night?” Which one? “Uh, she had brown hair, a white t-shirt and um… yeah. I’m hungry.” That’s why you got to put those supposed flaws front and center and rock that shit. You’ve got a back brace? Rock it. Chipped tooth? It makes you brassy. Fake leg? Don’t stress.”

Imperfection is where it’s at. Stands out girls.. :)

look into the eyes..

Thanks for the Pics!! was really well-taken! :)

the 20 things you might not know..

1. I hate my fat cheeks.
2. I wear g-strings, low-waisted, but no, no granny/lacey panties.
3. I think blowing kisses is the funniest affectionate action ever but I do that when im feeling happy.
4. I hate the sound of chanting at a funeral.
5. I have very sensitive skin.
6. I like the color “White”.
7. Frankly, I observed and adore vain man.
8. I hate rambutan and jackfruits.
9. I need courage booster to go for brazillian waxing.
10. I really hate pills.
11. I talk to myself when im alone sometimes.
12. Sometimes I just wished to be labeled pretty instead of cute.
13. I don’t like to be ignored.
14. I always dream to speak with a fluent French / Jap.
15. I look at the girls more than I notice guys.
16. I used to dream having my own bath tub, soaking myself in bubbles.
17. If ever there’s a wish to meet someone, I wish I could meet my mom again.
18. I have been the core attention in the family for 25 years I live.
19. I am living with a dream of earning to travel.
20. I can't think of 20 things you might not know about me.

still sweet at 25!

Yay!! Pyjamas Party on 11 june 2010 was a blast!!!!!!!!!! :)

Success!! Yippiee...

Big Thanks to my Party-Girls Committees.
Thanks to all my lovely guests who turned up at the Party and had marked a great memory chapter i turned 25.

Me.

I’ve been getting questions about my personal life and it seems like some of you want to know more about me. Alright! Let me share with all of you something, of how I viewed my life thus far and how i wanted my life to be.

I told myself,
I cannot afford to go through life uninspired, unexcited.

I cannot live each day miserably (though sometimes I had my gloomy days but I know i cannot afford to let it drag for long period),

I cannot trudge through work painfully.

Maybe I’m not meant to be spectacularly beautiful, or rich, or smart and neither am I born outstanding but i valued myself, i love ME!
I have been living my whole life for practicality.

To make those who loves me proud, to finish my education, to get a job, to stop being compared, to not lose out to my peers. I am not made for the competition, for the rat race or the who’s who.
I am Me, I am Kellyn , I should be accountable to myself.

I am exhausted from the wear and tear of the yesteryear,

from being jaded and cynical. I’ve been living life to meet expectations that people casts on me.

It’s time I should reverse the damage.

I want to make sure I am happy.

I. NEED. TO. BE. HAPPY.
Even if that makes me poorer, slower or a loser.

I know I need to look back and tell myself, I have lived dangerously and I have no regrets.

Heaven on Earth..

Wouldn't it be great if we lived in houses that perpetually look like they belongs to a magazine spread?

Loook!! These are just so beautiful like "Heaven on Earth"..