beats of my heart

2012 Resolutions

2012-01-15T18:14:00.002+08:00

i've been asking myself, what i want and how to make myself a better person..
what's the point of living a life that you feel like dying and thought its time i should set some goals and be focus on the right track..

In 2012, I want...

1) To go to work on time/be early. (almost impossible but i'll keep trying)
2) Value my own happiness more than anyone else.
3) Concentrate on career and stop procrastinating.
4) Be Independent (like i've always been and get used on living on my own)
5) Save more money
6) To go on a solo trip (anywhere)
7) learn to love someone than being loved.
8) To not taking things too hard and learn to trust. (learn to relax)
9) Always be prepared for worst to happen and be strong (because life's never smooth-sailings)
10) To dedicate 100% of priority to work hard (esp if I managed to get a change in job, Praying hard and i want to make it BIG)
11) To spend more time with granny (as she's getting older)
12) To expect less from others and set one free.
13) To look better and be more confident.
14) To not let anyone affects my decision.
15) To let down the fairy tale dreams and get on something more realistic.
16) To start loving myself more than anyone else.
17) To get a place and stay on my own.
18) Hopefully, I could earn enough to travel to more places.
19) Save enough to afford a new nest by age of 35.
20) To follow my heart and do as what's my heart says... I'd rather live with mistakes than regrets in life.

JIAYOU KELLYN!

I still remember this day!

2012-01-12T00:55:00.001+08:00

It's the birthday for the man I call dad..
Though been a while since we seen each other and hardly remember how he looks now.

Somehow,
Whenever I'm sad.. I thought of him.
Whenever I'm alone all by myself.. I thought of him.
In this night when I couldn't fall asleep now, I thought of him.

Happy Birthday Daddy!!

With Love, Your daughter

I wish for a Merry Christmas!

2011-12-23T01:47:00.001+08:00

Tearing at 2am in the morning.
Heart hurts feeling like slashes of sharp cuts within.
I am all alone right now and yet my soul, my mind is not at peace.

All I could do is to let my emotions flows now. Let free the tears within and crying my heart out.

I hope I felt better soon.
Goodnight world.

through the month..

2011-12-19T15:04:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday! to the BF

all ready for the Santa!

simply just love Christmas!

BEST WHITE WINE ever tasted! Hearts. <3

LOST

2011-12-19T12:00:00.000+08:00

When you no longer know what you want in life,
When you no longer yearn for anything,
When desires gone total blank in life.
It feels as if like a living body with dead soul walking on an empty street.
Of all you can hear were your own dragged heavy footsteps, frail pulse.
Disheartening to realize the best you gave is still not up to expectation, keep going, keep trying yet you’ll never get there
Overtime, it depletes your spirit.

Can’t wait for the year to end, for good. I wish someone up there could rationalize sorrows and offer more sympathy.

- Smile beats all sorrows. -

risk it..

2011-11-28T19:30:00.002+08:00

"to laugh is to risk appearing a fool, to weep is to risk appearing sentimental, to reach out is to risk involvement.to expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self. to place your ideas and dream in front of a crowdis to risk their loss. to love is to risk not being loved in return, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk despair.to try is to risk failure. but risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

Dawn

2011-10-13T20:34:00.001+08:00

"Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."

Adele - ''Someone Like You''

2011-10-06T23:04:00.001+08:00

real touching piece

sometimes it last in love, but sometimes it hurts instead..

knightfalls

2011-09-27T16:27:00.002+08:00

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairytale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.”

Living life..

2011-09-15T21:15:00.009+08:00

This post is going to be me penning down the eventful weeks and how rocky the road that I’m going through right now. The drastic change in emotions that I’ve never thought I could bear. Well, that’s how it makes one stronger I believed.

Understand life is not always smooth-sailing, and this year till date hasn’t been well for me.

Challenges at work, not for new scopes or task I was assigned to but rather in terms of people handling, handling uncomforting comments that would bring down your self-worth. It is not easy, especially when this person was one that you’re supposed to look upon and has the greater say of your welfare, yes unfortunately. But, I’ll never let this bring me down, it will drives me stronger.

Most blessing thing I supposed for me now is to be in love and to have met him. :)

Love does play a huge part in life, I couldn’t agree more now. No matter how the relationship turns out for what it’s worth, we just have to keep believing that. We all will and have someone always there for us, someone right- not just a lover, but your best friend, your soulmate.
How we got together wasn't just like any other couples, I would say that was an unique and exclusive one and it was through some hurdles but I'm glad we take the side to walk down the road together.

I kept holding on to the treasured friendship and slowly, i just realised it wasn't the same anymore. Though it didn't seem like I was affected on the surface but well, it was sad to know that the friendship didn't turn out stronger than i hope it would be.
I suppose we all think that we are right, but i also realised, some things are just not right nor wrong, People have different perspective on matters, and hence, perhaps some stuff doesn't deem right to one, and if so, those issues should be put across, to be improved and make sure one does it right the next time.

People make mistakes, people don't always agree with one another, people have different views,that is how we grow together, agree to disagree, understanding each other better through happy times and differences. So that each other would know how to walk down the road together, accommodating willingly with each other's needs, and knowing what the person likes, and dislike, or what the person is sensitive about.

Well, lifes goes on, i don't think people really care whether we are happy or unhappy,and the more we should brace ourselves up and walk down the road happily and positively.

Like aunt always tell me happiness or how we feeling happy every day is actually all in our minds, just how we look at things today. Nothing can change that, or allow that, but only ourselves. So let nothing stop us for pursuing happiness, it is your own happiness that you’re accountable for and letting go is a skill to learn. Let go of those that will make you bad, hold on to those that makes you happy.

no matter how rocky the road is, i'm glad for at least i know i'm not alone now. Thanks love for being there. <3

footprints ablaze..

2011-09-12T21:48:00.007+08:00

This week..
aplenty of thoughts with worries rises.
there's point in time when human broke down for there are too much of emotions and mental torture that one could take....
Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy.
Maybe it's this expectation of wanting to be happythat just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get -to the point where we don't recognize ourselves.
Instead we just keep smiling - trying to be the happy people we wish we were.
Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along.
Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.

and.. life is about treating yourself better..

WITH LOVE

sawadeeka...(:

2011-09-12T21:14:00.009+08:00

BACK FROM BKK!

TOM YUM WE LOVE! SO SLURPS THAT YOU CAN'T STOP

The taste you could never forget.
Happy where curly and floats is.

2011-09-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

GETAWAY!

2011-08-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

BKK WITH THE GIRLS!

IN SIX DAYS!

PLAY HARD

...

2011-08-23T00:29:00.000+08:00

The pads of your fingers have become printing blocks,
you tap a message to my skin; tap meaning into my body.

Your morse code interfered with my heart beat.
I had a steady heartbeat before i met you, i relied upon it,

it had seen active service and grown strong.

Now, you alter its pace with your own rythmn, you play upon me, drumming me taut.

secret

2011-08-22T23:51:00.004+08:00

she'll let her in your sight, if words you say are right.
she'll look at you and smile, if you would go the extra mile.
she'll lead you down a path, there will be laughter and spark.

there's a secret garden she hides
with wiles and smiles, she'll let you come just near enough

her eyes will say she's got a secret garden deep inside
where everything you want and everything you need will always stay....

ties that bind

2011-08-06T13:47:00.005+08:00

Just when i realized, i havent been sitting down quietly, peacefully like now to do my blog for awhile, recalling what had happened and realizing I’m chasing and behind of all changes, too much uncertainty that i could embrace right now. I hate the feeling for blinded of what’s next.

"A wise man once said you can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it. What he meant is nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you’re willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you’ve spent a lifetime building. Of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don’t see coming, when we don’t have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that’s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear."

Happiness is within my grasp

chasing pavements

2011-07-07T22:19:00.001+08:00

"i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

- marilyn monroe

“life is short. love and let live!”

2011-07-04T20:01:00.006+08:00

Life just has to do the way you want it to be.

"there comes a point in life where you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. after all life is too short to be anything but happy."

At times we know, we might not be doing something that will do good to us. We faithfully following things that we see it wrong at the start, but like someone once told me, WE ARE WAITING FOR MIRACLE and I think it’s true. We want miracles and we make it happen, live with the process that make us learn, live with experience that make us yet a better person, I believe that makes life a way worthwhile.

this yet another week.

“life is short. love and let live!”
I am missing pizza & wings at Timbre already....

(:

2011-06-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

This is what needs to be happy..

"make yourself comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, love to complete your life."

when the night falls.

2011-06-20T23:42:00.005+08:00

Thanks for everything.. It is the love that keep me going. Always.....

the love.

2011-06-16T11:31:00.003+08:00

I had a wonderful, remarkable twenty-six Birthday, though there’s a lil hiccups but I’m thankful that I’ve my dearest with me.
the people i hold dearest to. amazing grace. amazing love. thats all i need to push through the curveballs life throws me =)

Happy Birthday, Kellyn. I promise to love myself more than anyone else from now on.

"Life is too short to wake up in the mornings with regrets. So love the ones who treat you right, forget the ones who don’t. Remember that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life, then let it. No one said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."

trick of life

2011-05-31T16:36:00.001+08:00

In life, the real trick is understanding what rules are not meant for you.

this is inspiring.

2011-05-27T16:20:00.003+08:00

our job.. is to not let anyone define who we are by their terms

hey!!

2011-05-16T11:39:00.002+08:00

Morning Love!
it feels just great to start Monday with the companion of "Friday" feel.
=D

it makes a different

2011-05-05T21:33:00.001+08:00

we (especially those living in developed countries) all have the power to reach out and help. It's whether you make the choice to or not. I truly believe as little as an effort may be, it can and will make a difference in someone's life.

From the book "Half the Sky":
A Hawaiian parable:
A man goes out on the beach and sees that it is covered with starfish that have washed up in the tide. A little boy is walking along, picking them up and throwing them back into the water.
"What are you doing, son?" the man asks. "You see how many starfish there are? You'll never make a difference."
The boy paused thoughtfully, and picked up another starfish and threw it in the ocean.
"It sure made a difference to that one," he said.

brilliant..

2011-05-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

Reminds me why i adore his brilliance.

another breathtaking song...

2011-04-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

It tooks a lifetime to find each other... but it was worth the wait when you finally found the one. :)))

what are words

2011-04-17T18:18:00.007+08:00

True love doesnt have Happy Ending because true love never ends....

i believe in a thing called "Love"..

2011-03-28T22:33:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday, Emo!! <3

chill, chill, chill the glooms away...

Simple weekends, Simple treasure. it's been such awesome night with the girls. :)

chronicles

2011-03-20T22:53:00.006+08:00

Back from Taiwan!!

I survived the 2 days when I lived with my lonely-self in the foreign land. It is indeed an unusual experience, but I enjoyed every bits of it. I appraised the city with the most friendly and helpful peoples around and amount of food stalls you could find along the street were extensive! Then, the pits is that everything just look so nice that you want to try it. And of cos, it is a shopping paradise as well, I became an untamed shopper and was driven by the devil named “don’t-buy-will-regret”, so I live up my shopaholic-self. :)

It is so much a pleasure to learn the fact that I’ve seen yet another place on earth.

It's LOVE everywher...

I wish this hunger to see the world will never fade away. coz when you open your eyes, you'd realize you’re all but a small and insignificant being. they always say, pride goes before a fall. “We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.”

Its all about eat and shop (Ximending, Wufenpu)

2011-03-04T22:01:00.010+08:00

it's 12 Deg in Taipei today..

Sooooo colddddd....

Day 2!!

Ximending

the vintage cafe...

Shinjuku in Taipei..

Mian Xian AGAIN.. (LOL, it is so cold and i craved for this)

Lu Rou Fan... Slurpss!

Wufenpu - i spent 4 hours here yet not cover all the streets... it's like 5x of bugis street..

the night in Taipei

"K" - isn't this a must-buy for me?! :D

shopping, shopping, more shoppings...

(Deal-of-the-day: shoes for $15 and dress from $20..)

alone in taipei, day 1

2011-03-03T22:55:00.013+08:00

Ji Pai!

it feels great to be a tourist! :D

and Taipei is certainly a city with the most "Friendly" peoplesss! :D

I LIKEY!

sneak preview...

2011-02-26T12:25:00.003+08:00

this is very important! :D
Now, LOOK AT THE ROOM!!

i hope the actual room look as nice as da pics does.

"tense" dinner i had with the directors & Business partner.

been so busy....

2011-02-26T12:21:00.001+08:00

Been so busy…

My life have been pretty much on work, social and myself..
I decided not to involved my life with the other half for the past 2 years..
Reason simply being,
First, I have got a broken heart to mend first before I could love someone whole heartedly again..
Secondly, I could feel that I’ve losses the sense to love..
Third, it’s harder for me to give trust to someone again…
It has been tough for me but I can proudly tell everyone now that I’ve gotten over everything, it supposed to be so much hatred within but I’ve forgiven..
What’s left behind, was a lesson learnt, a stronger heart to guard and of cause, good memories stays..

I did a lot of reflection when I’m alone,
thinking what future I would paint for myself
do I remain alone or I should share my life with someone else..

I missed those teenage years when I can fantasize all the nicest things to have in life..

At the age of 18, i want to grow up fast and not being dependent
At the age of 21, I want to work hard and to start earning myself to a good living (to be financially independent)
At the age of 23, I dream being in a pretty white dress and happily hoping to get wedded at the age of 25

At the age of 25,
I realized things isn’t that simple as what I thought before, (or maybe it was never easy)
Any decision one made, affects another and I find decision the hardest adversity I have to faced now..

I can honestly speak that I am unsure of what I want all the time,
Though I hold the attitude of “take it as it comes”
The downside of having this attitude was, you will never know what you really want…

Weekends is here! The worst busy week has past... FINALLY

AND I’M LEAVING ON A JET PLANE….
See’ya lovelies! I’ll keep posting timely because lappy is coming with me!!!! :)

the begins of twenty-eleven

2011-02-21T00:02:00.007+08:00

Happy Valentine's twenty-eleven

i've got the sweetest colleague

Love from my Favourite girl who never fail being sweet

Unexpected surprise from my boss

Thanks reminder for the lovely dinner and gift

my lil cousin has grown up, (makes me realised i'm actually getting old already)

We're the TAYsss. :) :) :)

me likey ribbony nails..

Goodnight loveliesss.. Have a great start of the week folks!

10 days to TAIWAN!! :))))

....

2011-02-11T15:29:00.001+08:00

In this world,there is always one person waiting for another.
be it in the middle of a desert,
or in the middle of a big city,
And when these two people pass each other and their eyes meet,
past and present loses all importance.
And the only thing that exists in that moment and the incredible certainity that everything under the sun was written by the same Hand,
the Hand that awakens Love,
and that makes a twin soul for everyone who rests and seeks treasure under the sun.
Without this,
our human dreams would make no sense.

i love Taiwan

2011-01-22T11:28:00.001+08:00

I am going to Taiwan. I like my impromptu.

Flight – Checked
Lodging – Checked

Knowing that I’ll be in Taipei alone for 4 days is trilling my nerves but i'm EXCITED!
:))))))))

thoughts of life

2011-01-16T14:36:00.003+08:00

We’re shaken out of our routines.
We’re forced to look inward. We reflect on the past.
Did we spend enough time with an aged parent, we wonder.
Did we express our gratitude for all the sacrifices that they made for us?

Did we tell a spouse just how desperately we love them, not just once in a while, but every single day?

So some loss causes us to look backward, but it also forces us to look forward,
to reflect on the present and the future, on the manner in which we live our lives and nurture our relationships with those who are still with us.

We may ask ourselves, have we shown enough kindness and generosity and compassion to the people in our lives? Perhaps we question whether we’re doing right by our children, or our community, whether our priorities are in order.

We recognize our own mortality. And we are reminded that, in the fleeting time we have on this earth, what matters is not wealth or status or power or fame, but rather how well we have loved, and what small part we have played in making the lives of other people better.

- Barack Obama, January 12, 2011

Greetings!!

2011-01-09T21:15:00.001+08:00

Has been a lazy Sunday for me, I had swim, kinect and dinner with families, and it was great.

I start to appreciate the bonding as I grew older. Be it friendship, family or love life. It is these bonding that actually keep us alive. Afterall, we aint just living by our own, we live for one another, we live for peoples we love and for those who love us, and that makes living a worthwhile ride.

I couldn’t believe that I’m crossing over to the mid 20s to late 20s. (seriously, kill me) ,
I've never get worried of the future, because I’m just gonna take things easy, and take it as it comes. (pretty much depends on fate in a way)

Friendship: I want to say a BIG thank you to my crazy gang, you girls are the ones who keep me sane till now. Though we might be busy with our own schedules, but we made the effort to keep in touch by just simple sms, whatsapp, skype or FB. I’m glad to still have you standing by me in times of sorrows and happiness. I really appreciate the relationship we shared and I hope it keeps strong as time goes.

Career: I’ve made a decision for a change of path in my career and I would say, I’m happy with the arrangement till now. I must be happy because it is what I’ve chosen for myself. I started with hating my job, for always taken up my me-time and now, somehow I’ve adjust myself and got used to it. I accept the fact that earning for a living is always not easy and we should never be just content with the comfort zone, that’s how we grow.

Family: Relationship with daddy didn’t get closer, or I would say, we are further apart. This could be understood as we’re leading a different life now. Nevertheless, he’s still a “father” that I respect.

Granny: I wish with all my precious for her good health and long live. I know it has been a wish of granny to see my success, to finish my uni and finding myself happiness, I’ll try my best to fulfill them if I could.

Relatives: aunties, uncles, I’m so glad that we are bonded. Though I might not have all the parental love since young, but i found love from all of you, every single one of you who loves me. I appreciate the once in awhile text “how you doing” “how’s work” “take care and love you”, simple text like these comes great sweetness. I felt loved, always! I really do.

Love: I do get questioned ALL THE TIME on why is there no a particular someone..Well, for those who know me, it has been 1 and half year+ that I’m enjoying singlehood and trust me! I’m not complaining and I’m not really eager looking for someone.
Being in a singlehood really isn’t a bad thing afterall, I enjoy the fact that I could have full focus for myself. Do anything you want, go anywhere you want to bring yourself to. To me, this is truly a bliss pleasure. Though you might bump into sweet couples around, got envious with all the eternal love of 2 peoples is sharing but hey, it isn’t that bad to walk alone too, isn’t it?
Okay, I ain’t shutting myself up though, I’ll just leave it to fate and take things as it comes, like what I’ve always said.

Meanwhile, I’ll enjoy being in a singlehood. :)

2011 revealation : For myself

2011-01-03T00:15:00.002+08:00

2010 happened in a swift...
i seriously counldnt recall anything mesmerizing in 2010.. it is pretty much just about work and myself... not forgetting loves from my friends and family..:)

so while waiting for my data to get extracted from my work system, imma just make a list of some reminders or resolutions if you choose to call it.

2011 top on list:

BE HAPPY
SLEEP EARLY.
More Sleep...
Never be late for work and Leave work on time!!! NO MORE OT
Do not be afraid to lose something/someone, if it's meant to be yours it will be
Try my best in whatever I'm doing
Make more time for loved ones and friends
Do not let what unworthy people think of me affect me
Remember to smile

alright.. thats all for now..

Tunnel of Love

2010-12-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

It ought to be easy ought to be simple enough
Man meets a woman and they fall in love
But the house is haunted and the ride gets rough
And you’ve got to learn to live with what you can’t rise above if you want to ride on down in through this tunnel of love

Bruce Springsteen, Tunnel of Love, 1987

me-time

2010-12-14T23:46:00.004+08:00

my life seems to be just revolving about work for a long time..
and the worst part of it, is that i'm getting used to it. :(

minutes ticking, weeks passes, months elapses..
2010 is coming to an end, so what's next?

i back-tracked my "to-do list" that i've noted down last year and this is what i have..
I’ve a list to-do for 2010, i hope to:

- have my teeth whitened (Yes, i went dentist yesterday after the last time 5-6 years ago)
- get a VAIO lappy (eventually, i have not get one for myself, still using my company's)
- lose at least 3kg (didnt managed to lose any but glad that i didnt put on more)
- read and reflect more, indulge and party less ( read Eat, Pray Love, To Kill The Mocking Bird, Tuesday wih Morries, The Time Traveller's Wife, Life story - Making Pink Lemonade, yupe, that's about it)
- perm my hair (curled it and get it straightened back, wanting curl again!)
- go for yoga and gym religiously (no yoga nor gym, but i do run)
- mug harder for my studies (deferred due to financial)
-maybe consider for a career shift (this is in progress..)
-save more money, travel more. (no travel in 2010, except for back-home-trip with girls)
-get myself a nice indoor tan. (no tanning, getting fairer infact)

looked at how much effort i've actually spent for my own happiness.
Not enough, seriously.
Marathon-Photos-Organisation, you need better photographer, all the pictures are ugly..:(

Wedding dinner @ Novotel Hotellove!

Missing holidays with the girls...

mess..

2010-11-07T23:38:00.002+08:00

These weeks…

I’ve depression on my left and loneliness on my right, they exist the moment I breathe awake.
I lived my everyday with overwhelming work, working from 9-to-9 for 3 days a week.
learnt that you gotta chase the rabbit if you want the tail.
had beer at 3pm.
concluded that we are the change that we seek.
watched back to back movies on back to back days, and had a deja-vu moment.
Disturbed by harassing text.
still surviving from the lack of sleep.
these week has been really nasty..

I wish....

Time could stop ticking for a while, feeling rather exhausted chasing after each minute.
I could have long holidays, to a foreign land which I could feel like as if I’m starting a new life.
I could have quiet time by my own, with no BlackBerry, no emails, no calls, no texting.

ok..

I know it’s weird saying this on a public domain but although it might not seem the case, I lack confidence and self-esteem. I always have the worry that I am not good enough, that I am just a pretender and everyone else are unable to see my flaws and inadequacies. I worry that if people see that I am not good, then people will start rejecting me.
I need to learn that it’s okay to be wrong, to be imperfect and to embrace the irritating idiosyncrasies that make me,…me. It’s okay if I am not pretty, or do not possess the perfect body, not the smartest or most successful. I know if I live my life comparing milestones to everyone else, I’d always be miserable.

And this week, I've made the decision to go for a change, accepted the shift, taking new path.

All well I hope...

ELVA蕭亞軒 - 錯的人Ｍｖ

2010-10-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

back from holidayss...:)

2010-10-05T10:36:00.003+08:00

i do miss holidays... :(

my new-found-love - Lomo

2010-09-19T21:42:00.004+08:00

@ illy's Cafe ( Studio M Hotel)

Look! Lomo does MAGIC! simply love it! :D

we are what we choose

2010-09-19T20:39:00.002+08:00

What choices will you make?
Will inertia be your guide, or will you follow your passions?
Will you follow dogma, or will you be original?
Will you choose a life of ease, or a life of service and adventure?
Will you wilt under criticism, or will you follow your convictions?
Will you bluff it out when you’re wrong, or will you apologize?
Will you guard your heart against rejection, or will you act when you fall in love?
Will you play it safe, or will you be a little bit swashbuckling?
When it’s tough, will you give up, or will you be relentless?
Will you be a cynic, or will you be a builder?
Will you be clever at the expense of others, or will you be kind?

I will hazard a prediction.
When you are 80 years old, and in a quiet moment of reflection narrating for only yourself the most personal version of your life story, the telling that will be most compact and meaningful will be the series of choices you have made.

In the end, we are our choices.
sad to say, at times, our originality are influenced by surroundings, we complicate the simplicity of choices, making choices tough.

tough life...

the beautiful of innocence..

2010-09-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

kids are loveable !!! triple hearts!

Introducing : Gretchen & Lucius

Yay! that's Declann

Helloo! i'm Summer.. (i love the name)

Handsome little Kyle!

welcome back!

2010-09-01T09:28:00.002+08:00

lovelies! say hello to my straight hair!

Now & Then..

2010-08-26T22:52:00.004+08:00

Looooook!
how time has changed meee..:)

the 2 mins that touched..

2010-08-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

the last weekends i had..

2010-08-02T18:12:00.008+08:00

the sweet you cant resist.. :D

Go for GERMANY! that's all i spent and contribute to world-cup fever 2010!
take a break!

Friday-after-work : bball! (though i'm a noobie.. but i tried!) Hoop it up babe! :)

Saturday-food-overload: we had home steamboatie! slurps!

Scream!!

2010-08-02T14:54:00.001+08:00

i cant wait for this!!
feelin' the grooves, let's dance! SCREAM!!

that's what i wish..

2010-07-25T23:52:00.003+08:00

I believe in amazing love songs, cry at the sappiest ending in films, every signs point to 'romantic', so why then, do I not let myself believe and fall all the way in?

I have fallen before, let my guard down, with a slightly emotionally unavailable guy I met, I have fallen before, for someone who treats me his world and fallen for someone that was bad for me, and I have tried to fall for someone who was nice, who was constant, but I ended up running anyway.

Love was innocent back then,

The bundle of anticipation waiting to see someone again, how he interfere your steady heart beat, alter your moves, moves you with its pace of his own rythmn.
The necessitate to have someone by your side all the time, the reluctant to bid goodbye, ending the day with him with a long kiss, the shoulder you rushes to when you need a good cry, the first person you always find in your call log.
You feel safe, stable to rest in his arm, he held your hands tight and both walking in the same pace of footsteps, you’ll know that there’s always someone you can date with whenever the rest turn you down for dinner, the voice that you wish to hear for comforts.

I wish I had my innocence back and can love with no fear, fully and deeply again, like I have never been hurt before.

never mind the imperfections..

2010-07-23T12:13:00.000+08:00

“Any girl can be pretty, but for true pants-tightening appeal there has to be something working against you just a little bit. It could be a scar you got when you were little, braces or a mole right off center of your nose- that’s what will make you memorable to dudes. Isn’t it? Otherwise, it’s two guys trying and failing to describe you like “Hey do you remember that cute girl from last night?” Which one? “Uh, she had brown hair, a white t-shirt and um… yeah. I’m hungry.” That’s why you got to put those supposed flaws front and center and rock that shit. You’ve got a back brace? Rock it. Chipped tooth? It makes you brassy. Fake leg? Don’t stress.”

Imperfection is where it’s at. Stands out girls.. :)

look into the eyes..

2010-06-23T10:52:00.004+08:00

Thanks for the Pics!! was really well-taken! :)

the 20 things you might not know..

2010-06-17T12:22:00.001+08:00

I hate my fat cheeks.
I wear g-strings, low-waisted, but no, no granny/lacey panties.
I think blowing kisses is the funniest affectionate action ever but I do that when im feeling happy.
I hate the sound of chanting at a funeral.
I have very sensitive skin.
I like the color “White”.
Frankly, I observed and adore vain man.
I hate rambutan and jackfruits.
I need courage booster to go for brazillian waxing.
I really hate pills.
I talk to myself when im alone sometimes.
Sometimes I just wished to be labeled pretty instead of cute.
I don’t like to be ignored.
I always dream to speak with a fluent French / Jap.
I look at the girls more than I notice guys.
I used to dream having my own bath tub, soaking myself in bubbles.
If ever there’s a wish to meet someone, I wish I could meet my mom again.
I have been the core attention in the family for 25 years I live.
I am living with a dream of earning to travel.
I can't think of 20 things you might not know about me.

still sweet at 25!

2010-06-17T11:58:00.004+08:00

Yay!! Pyjamas Party on 11 june 2010 was a blast!!!!!!!!!! :)

Success!! Yippiee...

Big Thanks to my Party-Girls Committees.
Thanks to all my lovely guests who turned up at the Party and had marked a great memory chapter i turned 25.

Me.

2010-05-31T23:41:00.004+08:00

I’ve been getting questions about my personal life and it seems like some of you want to know more about me. Alright! Let me share with all of you something, of how I viewed my life thus far and how i wanted my life to be.

I told myself,
I cannot afford to go through life uninspired, unexcited.

I cannot live each day miserably (though sometimes I had my gloomy days but I know i cannot afford to let it drag for long period),

I cannot trudge through work painfully.

Maybe I’m not meant to be spectacularly beautiful, or rich, or smart and neither am I born outstanding but i valued myself, i love ME!
I have been living my whole life for practicality.

To make those who loves me proud, to finish my education, to get a job, to stop being compared, to not lose out to my peers. I am not made for the competition, for the rat race or the who’s who.
I am Me, I am Kellyn , I should be accountable to myself.

I am exhausted from the wear and tear of the yesteryear,

from being jaded and cynical. I’ve been living life to meet expectations that people casts on me.

It’s time I should reverse the damage.

I want to make sure I am happy.

I. NEED. TO. BE. HAPPY.
Even if that makes me poorer, slower or a loser.

I know I need to look back and tell myself, I have lived dangerously and I have no regrets.

Heaven on Earth..

2010-05-31T23:18:00.002+08:00

Wouldn't it be great if we lived in houses that perpetually look like they belongs to a magazine spread?

Loook!! These are just so beautiful like "Heaven on Earth"..

Amanda Seyfried - Little House

2010-05-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

.....

2010-05-25T09:51:00.000+08:00

it's different, i always thought, when someone dies.
when someone dies, there is a patch of blankness that makes it possible to accept.
A certain satisfaction in encountering the infinite.
But someone is lost to you and still lives, its an absurdity.

People fall in love in an instant, but it takes longer to fall out of love.
Perhaps there is a world where people would act on whim where deeds could detach themselves cleanly from all motion of consequences.
To him, it was an odd kind of nostalgia for things that never happened,
for a presence that like old memories, open a door on another direction,

A place where late night footsteps echo in foreign streets and you hold your breath perishing to know what comes next.
the kind of silence so accommodating, expectancy laughing in the air like clouds hanging over the dome.
With him, it was just a flash of idle curiosity, the kind which evokes a child to poke a stick into an anthill.
An action that, like the unknown secretary's gift of a ticket cannot be undone.

Fyfe Dangerfield - She's Always A Woman

2010-05-23T15:47:00.000+08:00

My Friends

2010-05-18T11:45:00.003+08:00

Have you seriously thought through, how many friends you’ve made in life?

Who are those that you always turn to whenever you need someone, who you really considered as “Friend”?

To me, it takes a lot to be considered my friend.

I do not take to frivolous friendship; some places makes for a lot of such similarly minded friends.

I term such relationships as proximate friendships.

Proximate friends can be found in places where you happen to be together and experiencing the same things at the same time.

Work perhaps. Short courses and even that gym workout you do every week;

remember who you saw without fail every week?

You are not aware but actually, you and him / her are proximate friends already. is but a short 2.5 years,

How do I make friends you ask?

I have friends, friends I have known for more than 5 years, friends I have chosen – to be in my small circle of friends.

oh yeah, just caught The Blind side during wkends, and god it feels righteous in so many ways. your typically old-style story that is high on hope, low on cynicism and long on heart.

no fuss, no tall tales, no gimmick.

it was an instant hit for me and certainly no surpise why Bullock nailed it with a Golden Globe. way to go!

..Slumber Party..

2010-05-18T11:23:00.005+08:00

so much so that i wanted to make it a private affairs, Hence, guest are limited. guest that i've extended my invitation to in FB are not confirmed. finalized name list to be advised. :) (or might not even have any guest) only my close darlings! (you know who you are) :p

the simplest joy im missing..

2010-05-11T09:50:00.002+08:00

As i grow older, one of my guilty pleasures is to do absolutely nothing.

the feeling of knowing that you have nothing planned for the day suddenly became gratifying.

if there was anything i missed the most,

it would have been waking up to nothingness and inactivity. days of sipping over-sized lattes with my fav frothy topping and caramel sauce while enjoying my read, the slowing down of almost everything, taking stock of what you have been given and to develop a certain little underrated characteristic known as joy. Or rather lasting joy.

and for now, it’s back to work.

all the way from Indo..

2010-05-08T22:23:00.003+08:00

Yummmilious...

can you smell...

2010-05-07T11:59:00.004+08:00

the weekends... Yayyyyyy!!

slurping pictures. I think I am getting a sugar rush just by looking at these pictures, heart attack inducing dessert. i was telling my lovelies that "Life is too short to be counting calories and we all deserve a good treat. So, go on, indulge yourself this week!"

to where i live..

2010-05-04T14:03:00.003+08:00

No, no, this is not about telling you how much I love where I’m living. here are some jolly good reasons why, spoken from a girl who really didn’t find a valid reason to fancy where she live in.

Love under the Sunlight: This is the place where it’s sunny almost all year round and I’m not complaining. Maybe you’ll like to call it warm, whatever and whichever way works for you. It feels good to know that any drappy piece of cloth can become a fashion statement or used as an acceptable excuse to bare more in this climate of ours. My point really is, there’s something cheery (and cherry) & positive about having sunlight all the time! and it is also good to know that you can just stick to a range of skincare for all year round. (though sometimes I do envy the west planet peoples who has winter, snowman for x’mas and adore the thick clothing fashions as well)

Let’s meet tonight Darling! : I love the fact that charting to and fro to meet anyone doesn’t go beyond 3 hours (and that’s an exaggerated figure itself already), which really makes traveling much less a pain in the ass (not like any other countries). We have a fairly maintainable and efficient transport system that we can rely on. By this, I give all you guys out there no chance for dishing out reasons for not sending your girlfriends home!

Food: I am not a seasoned or deserving traveler but what I’ve come to realise with regards to the concept of food courts, it really amazes me. This sprouting at-every-single-corner-of-every-single-mall phenomenon doesn’t come by at other places (i’d like to think it’s the landscape), which also means, most of the time you’re REALLY spoilt for choices. Not to mention, we have tons of restaurant and food choices besides those.

Bingo, ticket to heaven: if u notice, We have contest for every god damn thing that’s worth having a contest for. -_-

Work: We work like there’s no tomorrow with hoping for a stable income at the end of every month.

I wish I could win extra bucks which I don’t have to slog my ass at my miserable job, and living the dream of earning to travel.

that was long. Wait, when would be my next trip……..hopefully this july, crossed fingers! :)

what a saturday..

2010-05-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

literally dragged myself after work (yes, on a Saturday and was supposedly a public holiday) for dinner. pretty evident from the pictures that i’m worn out. swear i could fall asleep on the dining table. must be the work, i’m just saying. glad that food bring me wake alive again.

some play I had over dinner. The peekatures shall speak on behalf!

tryyyyyy.. drinking from my nose.. LOL

beauty tips!

2010-04-27T12:09:00.003+08:00

i have very very sensitive skins

and i've tried ranges of skincare to find one that suits over years.

my worst nightmare is definitely SKII, I had the worst side effect from SKII that im still regretting till now..

Nevertheless, there are really good one out there too..
so loveliess.. these are really worth trying..:)

Laneige Sleeping Mask - recommended! leave-on gel mask applied just before bedtime. it leaves your skin moisture and wake up with smoother skins the next morning! try the magical effects! guys, its good for you toooo!! Estee Lauder Advance Night Repair Serum - nominated the "best Anti-Aging skincare", my dermatologist actually told me that Anti-ageing should start when u're turning 25 (which i am now), this is really good to repair your skin. it helps with uneven skintone and blemish scars (i observed).

Laneige loose powder - love it! comes in handy whenever you wanna look light in your make-up. it keeps you looking matt and not greasy under hot sun. just apply after your sunblock and you're good looking gorgeous!! LOL :)

...

2010-04-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

At some point, you have to make a decision.
Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in.
Life is messy. That's how we're made.
So, you can waste your lives drawing lines.
Or you can live your life crossing them.
But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.

hello loveliess, Happy Weekends..

2010-04-24T23:55:00.001+08:00

with truckloads of love,

ending with me, your darling! :)
Happy Weekends!!

what i see from my " i "

2010-04-24T23:26:00.003+08:00

if only...

seriously, this is one great heart-touching movie that you can never miss..
my tears flows uncontrollably for the true and unconditional love they shared.. trust me.. you can't help it.

"if only" was beautifully crafted so as to give life to the meaning of love.
and this is what he said to her:

" I have to tell you this and you need to hear it.
I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today. I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear...
Today, because of you... what I learned from you;
every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed...
and I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully...
it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years.
Samantha if not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all...
So thank you for being the person who taught me to love... and to be love."

一起练习..分手后的自由

2010-04-23T18:25:00.009+08:00

谈起关于你的话题, 终于可以不用缺席
甚至还表现的不再关心, 从前你是伤的痕迹, 现在不过是场回忆
忽远忽近,
我怕的是低潮来袭这城市哪里够隐密, 藏住我突然想哭的情绪
宁愿失去斗志勇气, 好过和你冷战推挤
这样谁输得起, 原来分手是需要练习的, 等时间久了会变勇敢的
你慢慢出走我渐渐放手, 这不就是我们要的自由
原来分手是需要练习的, 等伤口好了会变轻松的
海阔天空不残留一点痛, 回头看怕懦弱往前走怕坠落
但我一定能学会, 在想你的时候不难过

Happiness...

2010-04-22T21:45:00.001+08:00

or so they always say..

today

2010-04-22T21:25:00.003+08:00

i took a day leave,
spending time at home with my favorite series, my favorite books and travelling my longed-to-go places through the WWW. I must say, I really love travel, It feels good to be a totally new person in a foreign land. in the past years, I’ve grown to love the western country, amazed by their history. just like my love for a magazine centrefold; a glossy and laminated autographed poster; compelling musicals and a list that screams to continue.

I always having hard time waking up for work but never a taxing for morning run. i tried all means to wake up for morning runs. my solitude runs. running keeps me in the groove and it’s technically the only alone time i have all day. it’s the only time i can have music blasted way over the top without imposing on anyone; the only moment i feel empowered; and really the only occassion i can process my thoughts while literally trying to catch my breath.

that being said, i had a satisfying run this morning and a blissful off day. back to the gossip girls!

i have an old soul...

2010-04-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's amazing when you find bits of yourself in the words of other people.

"We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken us a lifetime to learn. It seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence. It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is the great paradox."

- The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks

i think i have an old soul but a young heart. what say you?

Love

2010-04-20T12:17:00.003+08:00

If you've been having a bad week, take a look at these!! :)

They will surely brighten your day.

They photographs kids and their "lovies", observing the dynamics between the two.

What a great shoot!! :)

perfection encapsulated

2010-04-11T19:25:00.001+08:00

Maybe the best memories in life simply cannot be captured in their full glory.

They are the moments that are magical at the very instant they happen,

and yet when you try to revisit them after they've passed, it isn't quite the same anymore.
Because that's what moments are: brief, exact points in time.
And just like how you can never recreate perfection,

you might try to recall the details, to create the picture in your mind, to put them into words, but find that it's near impossible to relive them.

All you can get are wisps of happiness that curl the ends of your mouth into a smile in the mere seconds that you are able to grasp them for.

when the dream came trueee..

2010-04-07T12:34:00.007+08:00

It’s always been my dream to run a “up-in-the-air” plane theme restaurant,
Having all the food to serve in a meal we used to have in the plane (those lunch and dinner boxes?),
with boarding pass issued for people who dines in, with gorgeous stewardess-like waitress serving and a pilot captain to run the floor.

I thought of this years back and I’m inspired since I was 19 (if not wrong) .
Last night, just when I was browsing some travel's web excitedly planning my next holiday trip,
I found my “dream restaurant” came real to me. my idea does worked! Regrettably, I don’t own it by myself. :(

A380 空中廚房, Taipei

Nevertheless, I would still love to visit them! :)

inspired..

2010-04-04T12:17:00.004+08:00

my day automatically brighten up when i read discerning posts by individuals who are dedicated and passionate about what they do. or those who come to terms with their lives and their history.
These people almost never grumble about being shortchanged and tries their very best to make the best out of what they have. inspirational? very much.

So i ask myself then, what gives? and before i knew it, i came up with a mentor-to-mental list (I use queer name only myself will understand) which i will shamelessly stick by for at least some time to come. (pretty handy when i raise my kid)

1. School sucks, but Education is really important

Skipping lessons cos you hate your bias/boring/chalky lecturer or feel that the 2 hour lecture wouldn’t matter because it would have been spent doing more thrilling things with friends? Think again and mark my words. education, all in all, is what determines you in the long run (which I came to realize)

2. Never let anyone tell you your worth

Never ever, ever let anyone determine how much you are worth. you set the benchmark for yourself and they negotiate if they have intent on getting you. you don’t owe anyone a favour, you owe yourself one.

3. Start saving when you’re young, while you’re young.

This is probably the only thing that i didn’t factor in when i was a teen, and now i’m having to bite the dust. You are young, you have less liabilities/commitments and you are still in a student-saving mode. i know it’s really tough telling a 15 year old kid to save when they are getting a miserable sum for pocket money, but every single cent counts. once you’ve crossed 21 (earlier the better), be wise and invest if you can. (though I don’t falls into this category of people, which is why I’m slogging my ass to a routine job every day for just one stable income)

4. The coolest people are your family

We are all a separate entity, but we are all brought together by an inimitable bond that determined our identity (amazing). You are always reminded for the root on your head. The endless care, love and concern were irreplaceable. You can come home reeking of alcohol, falling sick, getting injured after games and you know there’s always someone there at home to take care of you. undoubtedly, there are the care less parents who care less when their kids flunked in school, who care less the well and being of their own kids. i’m glad I have a family who cared, which made them cool in my dictionary.

5. Ride along with your passion, it takes you the furthest

Need i say more?

long weekend is ending, way way faster than i expected it to.

but well, it is a cooling sunday to sleep in, stay home watching tv and indulge yourself in reading..

Till then!

cant get this outta my mind..

2010-04-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

i cant get this outta my mind.. in spite of the uber times i watched..

i'm still touched by his speech..

introducing members of Royal Palace...

2010-04-03T19:28:00.002+08:00

I'm a serving Yeoman Warder

all the way from London, England.

helloo sleepyheads..

2010-04-01T12:12:00.008+08:00

fluffy things always make me act on impulse.

AND!

i'm loving these... !!!! sweetie

cutie
and the sexy!! :D

Moree....oh my.... this is so pretty...

and i'm anticipating for this eagerly! feeling excited already....!!

the good old days we used to see..

2010-03-30T12:33:00.005+08:00

Taking a trip down memory lane, Things have changed,

For those who were born in the 70s and 80s...

1. You grew up watching MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk, and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles, My Little Pony, Tom and Jerry and Smurfs too.
2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug. The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too.
3. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in class.
4. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.
5. Buses used to be non-air conditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP! When pressed. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine, which punches a hole in the ticket.
6. You've probably read Young Generation magazine. You know who 'Vinny' the little vampire and Acai the constable.
7. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.
8. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50?
9. Strawberry ShortCake and Barbie Dolls fascinate Gals.
10. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.
11. You longed to buy titbits called Kaka (20cents per pack), and DingDang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipopis the diamond on the ring.
12. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five are probably the thickest storybooks you ever thought you have read.
13. KFC used to be a high-class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.
14. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word.
15. Your English workbooks were made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.
16. Water bottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.
17. Boys loved to play soccer with small plastic balls in the basketball court.
18. Teng-teng, five stones and zero point were allthe rage with the girls and boys too...
19. We wear BATA, or Pallas shoes.
20. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.
21. School dismissal time was normally around 1pm.
22. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almosteveryday.
23. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.
24. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.
25. Boys like to catch fighting spiders.
26. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.
27. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not",and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".
28. Class monitors and prefects loved to say, "You talk some more, I write your name ah!"
29. There were at least 40 people in one class.
30. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.
31. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

And those were the days.. we missed… isnt it?

the merriment continues...

2010-03-25T10:38:00.003+08:00

the merriment on march...

2010-03-25T09:36:00.004+08:00

Merriment on this march 2010...

We shared almost everything,

everything that we can share, we shared. except for our undies.. :p

Happy Birthday BFF!! :)

Man

2010-03-22T14:15:00.001+08:00

A genuine man was as unusual a phenomenon as a genuine woman.

For men, or so, in that moment however mysteriously, their beating hearts told them- were fathers, husbands and lovers who enjoyed behaving in a manly fashion. Men liked to act in a superior manner, bragging, sometimes even crowning with vanity: they were as ridiculous as roosters. Under their display, most of them madly melancholy and childish, now simple, now greedy, now dull and insensitive.

I loved man for genuinity, most resolute, just that and no more, the way a rock is a rock.

A man who is not trying to prove anything by raising his voice or rattling his hand, who does not crow, who asks no favour except those himself can grant, who does not look to women for either friendship or maternal comfort, who has no wish to hide in love's embrace or behind a women's skirts; a man who is only interested in buying or selling without hustling or greed, because every atom of his being, every nerve, every spark of his spirit and every muscle of his body, is devoted to the power that is life: that kind of man is indeed the rarest of creatures.

For there were mummy boys and men's soft hands, and there were loud and boastful men whose voice has grown croaky declamining their feelings to women, and they were vulgar, uncultured and panting kind of men- none as real.

There were the handsome, who cared less for women than for their own beauty and success. And there were the merciless, who stalked women as though they were enemies, their smiles sticky as honey, who carried knives beneath.

And then occasionally, just occasionally, there was just a man. So real, that you know he’s the one. The one in the millions, we call exception. So, what’s the chance to meet one?

my gratitute..

2010-03-18T13:10:00.005+08:00

You know the times when you’re young and you tumble and roll down the stairs,
scruff pass the edges of the glass tables while playing catch-the-thief or scald your tongue from the hot milo.
That were the time, mama would pick me up softly, whispering hush-hush to my ears, a kiss touched to my cheeks to comfort my misfortune.

I grew up with my grandparents up to my teen.
Frankly speaking, what they have done for me are far more noteworthy compared to my own parents.
I live with them, I grew up in their hands, they raised me. For this, I’m thankful.

Grandpa,
He always chauffeur me around, he has never been a tad late to pick me up from school. He waits for me patiently even sometimes I took my own sweet time, playing around in school knowing that he’s waiting. He wrote my homework just because I played the whole afternoon with neighbors. He always fulfill my wishes. Reward me when I’ve got good grades (or find reason just to dote on me). And when he have extra to spend, he spent on me. He protects me from all bullies, shoos away unnecessary acquaintances which came to me, he’s my shield, my shelter, my defend.

Mama,
She wakes up 3 times in the night to feed when I was a baby. I love sleeping in her arms feeling secured. I hold her hands on my chest when I go to bed.
she stands 4 hours every day outside my classroom, watching me the first full year I attended my nursery. Can you imagine granny actually attended 1 full year of nursery with me? She never leaves me. she keep her vision on me and only me. she never raised her voice or fluff up

when I'd behaved mischievous and done outrageous. she gives ample care. she valued my happiness more than hers.

There’s more over years and what I’ve mentioned here are just a small speck.
For all that grandpa and granny have done for me. I am thankful. Thankful for the privilege to have you both in my life.

the show

2010-03-16T11:51:00.003+08:00

i want my money back.. i want my money back.. :)

i thought of that 3 minutes we shared...

2010-03-15T12:10:00.001+08:00

Affection grown up in him for her and this affection is reciprocated,
Affection may not be love, they know well it isn’t love that they're exchanging.
However, they remain as two strangers despite the frequency they met.
Yet again, the affinity between them cannot be denied for the unspoken intimacy they shared went far beyond words.

it is eccentric to have met a particular stranger over the past years, at different time, different places.

A woozy Monday for me…:(

waiting..

2010-03-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

soo gonna watch this...

i hearts strangers.

2010-03-13T12:41:00.003+08:00

read about this blog few days ago when i was blog hoping, in random i found this!

http://www.iheartstrangers.com/

pretty awesome blog, the guy takes pictures of strangers he meets and writes a lil something about them. anddd...... he has shot and writeen about 500plus peoples.....

the first virgin perm

2010-03-08T16:02:00.002+08:00

if there's anything that i missed this morning, it'll be my lovely perm. :)

i took up 101% of courage, 102% of guts to do this...

my heartfelt..

2010-03-08T14:06:00.001+08:00

Realized, I’ve been in a league of my own for almost a year, and frankly I’m enjoying every bits of it up till now.
Now, I am mainly consumed with work, school, being professional with what I do, do just what I feel like to do, living up but not sucking up to others.

as I always self-proclaim to be someone independent,
but deep down, I always wish there’s someone trustworthy for me to depend on.
Past experiences forced me to grow up. I learnt, to safeguard myself I shouldn’t give trust to one easily.

Speaking of which, for the past years I cared for others more than myself.
I abandoned my dreams, my compassion, my affection, and even my core essence sometimes, with just the hope that others could reach theirs.
For last years, I got beatings (emotionally) more than I could takes and that certainly didn’t feel good.

I am the simplest person to pleased. And the first person i will attempt to please this year would be myself.
I staled being nice to others.
I really really would like to take a break.

adore.. adore..

2010-03-03T18:42:00.003+08:00

adore 1 : love this limited ed from Gucci - the joy tote.. adore 2 : i almost buy this during this cny, unfortunately, last pc sold old at raffles city outlet. :(
"simple is pleasure"

cast your votes! Adore no.1 or 2?! LOL

happy birthday..

2010-03-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

says... Happy Birthday...:)

celebrating birthday at Macdonald's!! wad a childhood recollect.. :)

PS: did ya guys realised i had "M" hat ? how comical. lol

celebrating the Love-Spring season.

2010-02-26T10:11:00.003+08:00

Hellooooo world...
.....of work, work, work,
i'm completely drained out...

i know this is NO good going long term. but i do not have any resolution for now.
and of work, i have no time for other commitments. i wish i'd have more time for myself.
i know its all about time management. But how? the way we work is, work late, worn out, sleep late (after we completed the maximum amount of work we can do for the day), rise early to continue and that's a routine. i really dont mind a routine but at least it must be what i like and it inspired. unfortunately, not for current.

alright, shall stay positive, hold the faith, for better days to come. :)

15 days of cny celebrations is coming to an end. this Love-Spring season was prolly a good one. meet-up with old friends, meeting relatives that you only see once-a-year, delicious goodies, sumptious dinners. (its all about eating for the chinese, i realised, and i mean eating good.) :) :)

who says, valentine's day cant be family/friendship day! and i had great timeeee..:)