These weeks…
I’ve depression on my left and loneliness on my right, they exist the moment I breathe awake.
I lived my everyday with overwhelming work, working from 9-to-9 for 3 days a week.
learnt that you gotta chase the rabbit if you want the tail.
had beer at 3pm.
concluded that we are the change that we seek.
watched back to back movies on back to back days, and had a deja-vu moment.
Disturbed by harassing text.
still surviving from the lack of sleep.
these week has been really nasty..
I wish....
Time could stop ticking for a while, feeling rather exhausted chasing after each minute.
I could have long holidays, to a foreign land which I could feel like as if I’m starting a new life.
I could have quiet time by my own, with no BlackBerry, no emails, no calls, no texting.
ok..
I know it’s weird saying this on a public domain but although it might not seem the case, I lack confidence and self-esteem. I always have the worry that I am not good enough, that I am just a pretender and everyone else are unable to see my flaws and inadequacies. I worry that if people see that I am not good, then people will start rejecting me.
I need to learn that it’s okay to be wrong, to be imperfect and to embrace the irritating idiosyncrasies that make me,…me. It’s okay if I am not pretty, or do not possess the perfect body, not the smartest or most successful. I know if I live my life comparing milestones to everyone else, I’d always be miserable.
And this week, I've made the decision to go for a change, accepted the shift, taking new path.
All well I hope...
